Rants - Bear
Long Time. Delete
02/13/06 11:26 AM
I've been meaning to post something here for a while, don't know why exactly I should bother, chances are the only ones who'll read it will be a few friends and random people online.

Since my last post my mom is doing alot better, she's back at work and the doctors say everything is gone, but there is a chance of it coming back. I've also started school again to finish up and get my diploma. Only two months left and I should be ready to get a job.

Speaking of which, A friend asked if I wanted to go out west with him, get an apartment together out west and stuff, it was not my orginal plan by a long shot. I was originally going to live at home for a while after school, send out my demo reels to Toronto and if I got a job down there move into the city, I've got friends down there that I can hang out with, people I know and i'm familiar with the city to a degree.

But moving out west is a rare chance that i'd most likely never take on my own, starting a new life somewhere else would be hard alone, but with a friend out there that you know you can at least start off with company until you meet new people and get your roots down. keith has a girl out west apparently, so that's his motive to move. I guess moving for me is just for the sake of saying I did. years from now I'll be able to say I've been to Edmonton, I've lived out west.

I don't know if I'd make the move permently, if I got a good job I'd stay for a while but I don't think I could live out there for the rest of my life, I'd get too homesick me thinks. my family is in ontario and that's home, anywhere else would just be that, somewhere else.

But I' am looking forward too it, like I said, it's a rare chance that I'd never act on alone, I'd be too scared to just up and move to a strange city on the other side of the country.

but first I need to get my schooling done, I want to have my demo reel re-animated and touched up by the end of March so I can send out demo reels my late march or so. Keith plans on moving out in April and I'd like to have a job lined up before I move out there, at least that'd be ideal anyway.

Stuff Delete
08/24/05 08:11 AM
Well, life certainly can be interesting. I have not posted in this thing for a long time cause I tend to not have anything worth posting. I mean... people REALLY gerneraly don't care what others have to say about the trivial things in others lives. some do... you freaks!

anywho, I've gotten less and less spare time now. I'm going to school three days a week in Toronto, and thats almost 2 hour commute there and almost 2 back. and now my weekends are possibly closer to X-mas my Mondays and Tuesday's will be taken up by work.

I started working about two weeks ago, got a job at the local EB Games. I enjoy working there it's fun, the stuff I'm selling is something I know about and the products are something I'm interested in. The employee discount helps too.

The Manager is a fun person to work with and so far the other co-workers are fun and outgoing, definitly not much of a boring day when your stocking shelves with these characters around, SOMETHING interesting is bound to happen.

Whew! Delete
04/13/05 04:54 PM
There's nothing like worrying about something huge, something earth shattering that could potentially make or break your future... then having it come by and be over in minutes... and still have a future to look forward to.

It's almost relaxing, I have not felt this relaxed since I started College. Suddenly things feel right and I can continue on with my life, secure in the knowledge that I can do this... I can have this project done by the deadline and I can make this all work.

In case your not aware, I'm referring to my near miss in school, Due to technical problems, I was not able to show a teacher a project. I was then suppose to show it to the program chair, and I was not given any information other then that.

In other words, It really sucked because I could not contact the chair in time and I might have failed two courses. BUT! a ray of light shines through the gloom.

All I have to do is show the work now that I could not show before, and I should be off the proverbial hook and free ton concentrate more on my current work then worry about how I'm going to pay the for two courses for a second time... plus how to break the news to my parents that they trusted me to do things right and pass and I'd have let them down.

But not more then 10 min ago, I talked with the chair, he's seen the character and rig, given me suggestions on what to do and who to talk to and I'm sure the animatic will go over just fine next week when he wants to see it.

in other words... Things have worked out... It's like I'm watching one of those cheesy "family" shows where the teenage son gets into crap each week and has to weasel himself out of the situation by being clever, but it fails and in the end he has to own up to his mistake, you know the one... the one where the kid ALWAYS gets into trouble and by the end of the episode he's off the hook, a lesson is learned and everyone laughs at the dog who just jumped onto the table and is eating the cake.
I don't know how I do it, but stuff just seems to happen, bad stuff, stuff I really didn't want to happen. This stuff plays havoc with my head and I'm worried and confused and more then a little scared that I just screwed my entire future up. then ... poof. it's all over and everything's fine, I'm back in class working away on my project and no ones the wiser, everything is happy and we can all live our life.

I think I can do this.

Sweet Delete
01/05/05 09:38 PM
Hey, hope you all had a merry Christmas! i sure did... My biggest presant you may ask?

I found out I was accepted onto the staff of Destinys wind. A fan made Star trek MMORPG. Currently the game is finished the coding of the engine and is soon entering into it's alpha testing stages and staff beta's.

my positions on the staff will be with the web design aspect... although I'd love to work on coding or modeling, I just don't have the skills for them yet, But with web design, I can take the iamges and layouts and stuff and throw together a site code thats rather basic for sure, but can then be finalised and made better by the more web sauvey staff members.

Apparently, this staff positions also gives me access to the beta's when they go public, only staff a a select few will be in on it. I just hope I don't dissapoint my new "boss" and co-workers and screw up... it's most likely a hard thing to do when you know that thousands of people are going to be seeing the site...

I'll post whats up and how everythings going with the design and stuff... maybe I can release some of the first screenshots to the public! yay.

I need to upgrade my computer in a hurry tho, cause by the looks of it it's going to require alot more ram and video card stuff then I have, So i'm going to be saving up some cash soon to buy the ram and possibly save some more up to buy a new top of the line video card.

Holy crap! Delete
12/19/04 10:44 PM
look at that calender will ya!

Today is Dec 19... in only a few more days Xmas will be here! It's kinda snuck up on me this year, I was kinda enjoying my time at school until I realized just how much time had passed.

I'm heading home for the holidays, I'll be leaving on Thurs the 23rd, I only have a lab that day, so hopefuly if i don't have alot of work to do I can skip out early and beat the traffic..if there is any at this time of the year :p.

I know that my family does not expect any gifts from me this year, what with my being away at college and all and not having a job right now to help me out, I don't have money for gifts. Bless my sister-inlaw for taking me shopping last week and picking up the tab... and for my mom for buying some gifts and sticking my name on it for them. I know they want to do it for me out of kindness and the fact that money is tight at school... But I feel like i'm taking advantage of them, my mom and my dad, my sister in law.... I didn't buy a single gift this year with my own money, and it kinda sucks. I know that each gift I receive, they used hard earned cash to buy it... and I mooched off my family. Granted they did offer it in the first place and I relunctantly agreed, but I still can't shake the feeling that I didn't BUY a gift.

I hope my other brother finaly gets his head on stright and helps out dad with shoveling the show this winter. he's nearing 65ish and he works almost everyday of the week, with him at his age and shoveling snow... it's not right, and my brother can be the most selfish person in the world sometimes, recently he's gotten a little better now that it's only been him and mom at home, but he still thinks he can just come home, eat dinner and bugger off with his GF anytime he wants to and not help out around the house in any fashion.

I don't know what to post now... I've kinda made my post about anything that was bothering my at the time... other then the fact that school is really piling up now and i'm getting a little worried.. But I always manage to pull through, I got this far and I can't let myself fail now.

anywho, I leave on the note of christmas spirit! but I think Krusty said it Best - Have a merry Christmas, a happy Hanukkah, a crazy Kwanza, a tip-top Tet or a solemn, dignified Ramadan.

Site overhaul Delete
12/18/04 03:27 PM
The site overhaul is almost done. With the help of one of our old enemies, we were able to make this site into what we had hoped for all along, Completely admin friendly, The users who edit the site don't have to know a single scrap of HTML.

Well, thats not entirly true, to make links and stuff in the news post and to make the news and journal entries have formating such as underlines and bold text, you'll have to know some html, thats how I got started on HMTL, a site allowed me to do what i'm doing with this site, but also allowed html, so I just used the HTML in the script that generated the site and eventualy I learned how to do entire sites in HTML.

Anywho, the old site with all her old rants and hard work is still there, just covered up by this, when I get finished with this site re-design and tweaking, I might delete the old site and just keep this new spiffier one going.